It’s always darkest before the dawn

I read a lot of advice from entrepreneurs. Many of them describe a scenario where just as they got close to succeeding things seemed very bad, and that they had thoughts of quitting – or at least doing a major reset on the project.

For the last couple of weeks I have been living in this black hole – so close to reaching the summit, but it seeming like it was impossible to get there from here. It is completely brain-numbing. It saps out your desire, it brings out all of your fears. It makes you go back and revisit negatives that you overcame weeks, or even months ago.

It is very easy to either quit at this stage or to spend so much time engulfed in the fear of defeat that you cannot win. It’s a very critical point in any startup.

The good news is that we’ve just come out of the other end of the tunnel. I realize now that the light I have been staring at for two weeks is not the light from an oncoming train. Instead it is a beautiful dawn – filled with spring flowers, singing birds, and a development team that is in synch, and prepared for the final surge to completing beta. šŸ™‚

I wish I could share the relief and excitement of this moment with you – and I am happy I didn’t share the deep, scary black hole of the last two weeks or so. I think if I admitted publicly where my head was at that time I would have gotten stuck in that void.

This is what starting companies is all about – reaching that summit. Sure, there are more mountain ranges ahead – some of them taller than the one we just climbed. But we’ve climbed THIS freaking mountain, and dammit, we’ll climb the next one. Each mountain you climb makes the next easier to face.

I love startups – I love not knowing what my damn job description is. I love that nobody in this new venture has even talked about title, much less been assigned one.

I love changing the world. One startup at a time.

Here’s to the next mountain – may it be as challenging as the last, and ultimately as wielding!


  1. @ Deannie – thanks. I believe I can! šŸ˜€

  2. deannie says:

    Can you hear the cheers? šŸ™‚